OMG!!!

i miss Mistress SO MUCH!!! i have been reading up and researching for my book. all that research into BDSM has made me a little, shall we say, horny! i decided to go and have a bath tonight. With wine, a toy, and my computer. i will let you, my dear reader, fill in the blanks. ;) Let me just say, i am going to bed happy. Not as happy as if Mistress were here, but still. :D
i am starting to realize i want to experiment with so many things. i know i am typing this because my inhibitions are a little down. i hope that Mistress reads this and holds me to it. i really do want a lot of things that i would never ask for or tell Her.
i am curious about having a girl play with me. i don't necessarily think of myself as bisexual or lesbian, just very, very, VERY curious. Not sure how far i would want to go with her, but would definatly want Mistress there. The one thing i know i want to do is make out with another girl. i REALLY hope You approve Mistress.
i want Mistress to get me very horny throughout the day, give me a glass or two of wine (She knows the significance of that!), and then take me to the dungeon. i want her to have fun with me. i want Her to tape it. Wow. i can not believe i just said that.
i want Her to Dominate me. i mean i want to be conquered by Her. i want Her to show me who is truely the Boss.
i want Mistress to pick out a pair of nipple clamps that are not obvious under my work clothes. i want Mistress to call me the morning She wants me to wear them and tell me just that. i will then be expected to periodically throughout the day send Mistress pictures to prove to Her i am doing as She told me. i will also send Her text to let Her know how i feel and how turned on i am throughout the day.
Maybe i should stop now. The wine is starting to burn off and i might delete some of the stuff i just typed. i really want Mistress to read this stuff. Please Mistress. Know i love you. i hope i have not crossed any lines. You mean the world to me. Please know what You mean to me. i have never felt this way. i am so thankful You have shown me this side of me and how i can be this happy. i can not wait to move in with You and take care of You. You are worthy of all the love and affection that the world can give you. Thank You so much for choosing me.
Sorry to everyone else for the gushing. i can not help it when it comes to Mistress! She is the perfect Domme for me! Have i told You i love You? Because i do!!! :D